Thursday, March 30, 2006
dear friends, i am thankful,despite of the uneasy feelings and the heartfelt pains in my chest that constantly still haunts me when i sleeep.the hidings underneath the blanket, and keepin myself away from people. and the wonderings of should i do something about my life. the depressing thoughts that comes and go all the time.But, m thankful of what you guys have beeen there for,a hug, sms, a phonecall, a prayer..catching up through ice-creams.a walk down the street, through lunches.coffees.a cooked dinner.shoppings.thank you thank yous for the most little things.the constant support that you gave, the listening ears, the advices.the wanting to even meet up,the prayers through the phone.shoppings;cause retail therapy helps. the amt of time and effort spend listenin to my whinings and nonsense. for suggesting we shld do something to occupy my mind and self.For the amt of times the strawberry shortcakes happy meals from maccas excites yous.i am really thankful and contented having you in this journey.that you are so willling to share your life and journey.i just want to have a quiet one today,spend some time at home with work.i miss home... in malaysia.
|chunnie.poh| 11:34 AM|
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
alrightsi feel totallly like out of place.i said the wrong thing.to the wrong person.feelings: somber, remorseful, deeply regretted.dearest yous:im sorrry.Lord God, i ask for forgiveness.tame my tongue and words as i might have hurt others of what i might have said.make me more aware and be more sensitive of what others needs are.i ask this all in your name..AMEN!
|chunnie.poh| 6:20 PM|
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
dare i present to YOUS...
He makes everything beautiful in HIS TIME...Ecclesiastes 3:11
|chunnie.poh| 11:31 PM|
Sunday, March 26, 2006
the excitment is happening all over in malaysia and in the family.
m stuck here.
congrats eddy and angel on your wedding
heartfelttttt wishes and blessings are with you from melbourne.
|chunnie.poh| 7:26 PM|
love you cousins.
the boys.have a new toythe coffee machine.they have been testing out which grind is the besthow hard to temp the coffee.so the crema would come out nice.how to froth so the milk would be smoooth and at its bestwas chilling out at jeromes yestthrough 2 mochas.talking and catching up.the future lies so uncertain.the worries of the "going-to-be graduate"i cant even imagine myself one year down the road.
|chunnie.poh| 11:31 AM|
Friday, March 24, 2006
in times like thisi just wanna curl up at homeand be my emotional selfand let the tears flow non stop.listen to sad and moppy songs.snuggle up in bed.sleeep and sleeep non stop.
|chunnie.poh| 8:13 PM|
flash back memories.
somehow i wished time would just stop then.
someone pointed the finger at me just now
and said it was all my fault.
im feeling all at blues now.
im feeling way affected by that comment.
im hiding back into my shell.
back to where i feel most comfortable.
|chunnie.poh| 4:18 PM|
wheez.weeeeeeeeeeeee..............m closer to home.everytime i change my bedsheets means its down by 2 weeeksit was blueee with flowers.....and then now its pinkkkk stripess! with lots of other colours.......anddd when u flip over its flowers.=)i cant wait to go home and seeee my dearest alls.dont worrryyy.love my life here as wellllll..hhahah for the past 6 daysi had 5 trampoline ice-creammes.and i think thats the only reason why i am feeling sick and ill.till thens!!!
|chunnie.poh| 10:02 AM|
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
met each other as friends.as the friendship progresses.both of you decided to go into a relationship.both of you were each other's world.sharing life and were each other's all.but as you break upyou completely cut off with each other's life.both walk away like you've never met before.like strangers on the street.met up with a friend for coffee.mentioned about how weird and funny and cannot understand and decipher whys??
|chunnie.poh| 8:10 PM|
lunches at brunswick streets.
coffees. n cokes!!
vic markets. haha being an "aunty"
the amt of laughter and spontaneous-ity.
staring into blank spaces.
love love lOVE you girlies.
thanks for the day out!!
|chunnie.poh| 7:05 PM|
Monday, March 20, 2006
apart from getting busy with school workthe research n the immense amount of readings.ive been meeting up with people.going out with different peoples.m enjoyin the amt of times wheni can walk out of the hse in the arvosto the city to shopp.alonee.there is sales everywhereand retail therapy always helps.this weeek, the weathers gonna be really beautiful.think ill be going to southbank and yarra river for a walk thens.m really looking forward to that!!! =)
to carol and david..CONGRATS
my heart was with you guys n the family from melbourne yest!!!
i could hear everyone's excitment when i called.
cant wait till june when you guys share with me about the wedding.
|chunnie.poh| 10:15 AM|
Monday, March 13, 2006
one of my favourite places to go.
too much memories,
|chunnie.poh| 11:07 PM|
decisions decisions n more of them.
we always have a choice
whether it be what we want to eat,
what we want to buy, what we choose to do.
its always a choice.
if i wear a mask,
i can fool the world but not my heart
there are so many beautiful things
in the world waiting.
today begins a new chapter in my life.
*you are my God,my life, my all
and i live for you alone,
i am yours evermore.
with walks and ice-creams at brunswick st
to the night markets.
meeting up for teas in the afternoons.
a crazy n wacky bunch of friends
a family and which loves
a spiritual family and a ministry that i love.
and a GOD bigger than anything.
what more can i ask for?
|chunnie.poh| 10:24 AM|
Saturday, March 11, 2006
3 weeks have past by.
the pain never ceased to stop
no matter what i do.
i tried and tried
wallowed in the busy-ness of work and things to do.
but it just wldnt go away.
|chunnie.poh| 2:41 PM|
Friday, March 10, 2006
I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words inside my diary,
screaming out loud, as i pen them down.
i know,we can't jump the track cause we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button ever.
breathe, just breathe.
cause there is light at the end of each tunnnel.
i tell myself each day before i go to sleep and pray.
|chunnie.poh| 8:01 AM|
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
i miss yous.
|chunnie.poh| 9:55 PM|
Saturday, March 04, 2006
i am stuck.
i dun feel good.
i need to have a proper closure to this.
this is so not funnny.
its so affecting me.
|chunnie.poh| 10:12 PM|
Friday, March 03, 2006
i miss you.
i miss just having the presence of you in melbourne
the support you always give.
the best news i thought i heard the whole week
was that you were going to apply for p.r to come back and work.
i went past mackers, refused to go in without you.
went to china-bar.
thought of the times we spend there.
stopped outside ur apartment
the immensely amount of time we spend talking and sharing our lives there.
missing you the best friend.
|chunnie.poh| 10:48 AM|